Today I talked to my phychtrist on the phone. I had visted with her last week Thursday after not seeing anyone for over a year. The bad thing about mental illnesses is that you always think and feel that you can beat them without meds. You feel as though you can just get through it some kind of way if you just take it day by day. Well last week I just couldn't take it anymore. I was starting to have more and more anxiety attacks over nothing and just feeling depressed for no reason. So I decided it's time to go see the doc again.
She put me on a new medicine called Saphris. After taking 5mg for three days along with my anxiety medicine I finally decided that it wasn't working (a usual sign of BD) and called her to tell her what I was experiencing. After taking the wafer, I would feel out of body almost. As if I was under local anesthesiology. I couldn't move my muscles and I couldn't quite go to deep sleep. It was like being in a twilight. I would hear people talking but could not respond.
She told me to go ahead and stop taking it and she will give me some new meds tomorrow and see how that goes. This is the sad thing about this illness; it's very hard to find a drug that works just right. This is going to be a long road but I'm ready!
Pray for me and give any constructive advice that you may have.
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